idk what the real deal is here but from talking to halo on the phone i just think the situation at present has gotten out of hand, im not gonna take sides here but if Calm and Liyoki are stirring up shit here, or whatever then i believe that they should come forward here on this thread and be mature enough to tell us all their side of the story. im not taking sides here cus i dont know the whole story but id like to try and understand this if i can.

... I haven't been to these forums in awhile, so please forgive my delay of reply. Please also allow me to make something very clear: I am innocent. I have no interest in stalking other people and no time for such pursuits either. For the past two weeks I have had internet access only once because I have been traveling, visiting relatives, working and so forth.

Halo - It may interest you to know that I have recieved a significant amount of hatemail as well - both on and beyond this site - most of which was signed with your name but some of it under anonymous/guest postings. And some of the content of those messages was so offensive that I didn't even have to report them, they got banned automatically. So... If those messages weren't sent by you then I don't know who sent it or why. Likewise, I sincerely do not know who is targeting you and your accounts or why. I hope that you are able to block them. Most websites do allow you to report and remove abuse. Please do not continue to blame me for things that I honestly have no connection with. The photo - that is not me. I don't who it is. I haven't ever seen those people before.

As always, I wish you happiness and health.

Courage and Peace.

I have been thinking about this.

And would like to add: Honestly, I would not know Liyoki if I tripped over her. I have only ever knowingly spoken to a person with that name in one topic - here - in these forums. I did not know that her real name was Jennifer. I do not know what she looks like. I do not know if she is guilty of anything but, under the circumstances, have my doubts.

Furthermore, you have also accused RVD-san. This does not make any sense to me. Aside from the fact that he is ridiculosly busy and that - as far as I am aware, from the years of reading his blogs and listening to his shows - bullying has never been in line with his philosophy at all... This is his site. RVD-san is an administrator of these forums. If he really wanted someone gone, they would be gone. Halo - your account is still here. Your messages are still here. Nothing has been blockled, locked, edited or deleted.

If something has happened, please tell us. If you care at all about anything at these forums - or the old forums - then why should you just walk away? How will that resolve anything?

You say that you won't ask anyone to choose sides - but that means that you believe that there ARE sides. And it means that you already have chosen, doesn't it? What if we're on the same side? Did you ever even pause to consider that?

Maybe it's worth some thought.

Oh, and I guess I will just go ahead and explain about my Daddy since I talk about him so much, and I also talk about hanging out with rockstars so much, from a very early age. I don't mind telling anyone who my Daddy was or what he did for a living because nothing I say now can hurt my Daddy becuz he is going to die in Prison now anyway. There is nothing left that can be done to hurt him or that he can be charged with anymore. He is in the last stages of scirrosis of the liver and has less than two years to live now. He's also got 19 years left to go on a 30-year sentence, so he's never gonna see freedom again.

There's no way to say it except to just say it (unless y'all have figured it out by now). My Daddy was the biggest drug supplier to rockstars in East Tennessee ever. If you were a rockstar and you played the Knoxville Civic Colliseum or any other big venue in East Tennessee in the 70's, 80's and 90's, my Daddy got you high. He was the one that showed up with the dope. The East Tennessee connection that was just "spoken word" that when you go there, you call him. He could be trusted and whatever you wanted, and whatever quantity you wanted, it could be done and it would be there, delivered to you. As soon as I got old enough to start taking an interest in the pretty rockstars, I started going with him. The rockstars were soooo nice to me and gave me lots of love and attention. My Daddy on the other hand could be a very bad man and hard to live with at times. So when I was 13, almost 14, I had an opportunity to go on the road with a band on their tour bus, with the drummer specifically, and I took it. I got to see the United States and live like a rockstar, and I was also an asset to them becuz being the daughter of who I was, I could hook them up in any City, anywhere, anytime with a phone call to my Daddy. He knew where to send me. So that's how I got in on all that mess.

So, as you can see, I am a very cool and laid back kind of person to have around. And as far as keeping secrets . . . well, what you do backstage stays backstage. And I don't judge anyone. And I ask the same respect for myself. You may have noticed I never post any of my backstage photos because of the personal nature of them. And I know I talk about making out with Axl Rose and Scotti Hill but, damn, that was 20 years ago. Ya know? lol.

But, anyway . . .

Halo

I swear to you, Calmmountain, I have NEVER, EVER sent you such emails. And I can only assume that such person or persons posing as me has sent the same kind of emails to RVD. It's all starting to make sense now. I AM INNOCENT TOO! I HAVE NEVER HARRASSED OR INSULTED OR THREATENED ANYBODY! All I have ever tried to do is love and help, and that's all I want now!

I would even surrender my computer and/or hard drive for inspection so it could be seen that I have NEVER done such a thing!!! Why would RVD ever believe I would do such a thing when I am here every single day of my life bragging on him, telling him how great he is, and running his forums for him? It just doesn't make sense!