It's all okay, Calmmountain. And I don't blame you for being fed up and frustrated. I felt that way too. I just felt like I was here every single day showing my love and support for RVD, bragging about him on my FB page, and basically everywhere I went, and no one would believe me when I said I was not the problem here. Yes, sometimes I'm dumb and silly, and I like to have fun, and I love to joke around with people. But I don't think there is one single person here who can honestly say they think that I am the type of person who just sets out to hurt people. I'm actually a really kind, caring and giving person. I think that's why I keep getting hurt all the time, is because I just feel this need in me to reach out and help people, and they keep biting me in the back.
It's taken me a really long time to learn (the hard way) that I just can't go around helping everybody. I have to protect myself too. And it's just such a sad, sad time that in this world we live in, the people who will turn on you the fastest and try their best to hurt you in every single way possible are the very people that you are trying to help. It hurts my feelings, because I would like to be able to offer someone a place to sleep for the night, or ask them to come in for a hot meal, but I can't because they want to rob me. I'm really struggling right now with all the damage that has been done to me over the last three years, that I didn't even know was being done until a couple of weeks ago when I found out my boyfriend was a phony, and he, his brother, and his mother, had come up with this plan that he would make me fall in love with him, marry him, put his name on the deed to my house, my bank account, etc., and then once he had everything, I would conveniently "dissappear". It's hard enough to find out that someone never loved you at all, but it just adds to the sting of things when you find out they actually hated you, and their entire relationship with you was nothing but getting revenge on you for three years ago when you tried to help them, and they somehow feel you "wronged them" when you set down boundaries on what and how much help you could give. They feel like I hurt them because I just didn't give ENOUGH! So they were going to take it for themselves, and damn me in the process.
Anyway, these people were bound and determined to ruin every single aspect of my life. Not just financially, but personally too. This "boyfriend" knew that I really enjoyed my friendship with RVD and that I posted pictures for him somtimes, and that I love being here at this forum. So I have been able to find out, with some help from a private investigator/computer nerd, that he and his family are the ones who hacked my email, wrote nasty messages, and unfortunately are still reading all of this here at this website right now because his brother and his mother are members here. They wanted to ruin my relationship with RVD because they knew it made me happy, and destroying it would hurt me a lot. I feel like they succeeded, and I never did anything except love RVD, as my friend. I truly, truly, only wanted to help him with his website and keep the forums running, and help bring new fans here to see how wonderful he is. Because he was always so kind and sweet to me, and I feel so bad that because someone wanted to hurt ME, they came here to do it, and hurt him and others in the process. No one here was ever meant to be the target to be hurt, except me.
Sorry I went on and on and vented like that, but maybe I just needed to. But I do need to let everyone know that there are two members here whose only purpose is not to be RVD's fans, but to get close to me and destroy any kind of friendship/relationship I have with him or anyone else here. I know who these two "members" are, and am very close to being able to proove it. As soon as I can proove it, I will expose who they are and I intend on pressing full charges to the limits of the law against them. The boyfriend has already been arrested and is in jail (thank God), so I can sleep a little easier at night. I feel like I just layed a TON of stuff on everyone here, but I guess it needed to be explained, and I feel a little better for getting it out. So thanks for listening, for all who did.
And on a lighter note, because y'all know I always try to find the humor in "anything", I'm posting a few pictures for y'all. I know you, Calmmountain, will get a kick out of these. I took these with my phone and went in and showed them to the manager at Walmart one day when I has having one of my, well, "not so happy days". (haha!) To make a long story short, we exchanged some words, said some things, and I won't tell you exactly what I said to him, but it had something to do with the horse he rode in on. (haha!) (I was quite a mad little wasp that day, teehee.)
I'll talk to y'all soon,