I just really love you, Reaptat. You are the best "online" friend a girl could EVER ask for. You know that, don't you? This is my solemn promise to you, and I will never break it. No matter where I end up in the end of all this mess in this great big wide world, YOU will always know my name and how to find me becuz you are JUST THAT DAMN COOL! YOU fuckin ROCK like a BANSHEE times 10!!! (And Halo doesn't EVER say that to NOBODY, but I just said it to you, didn't I?) As soon as I can get my sweet lil ass out of the state of Tennessee, and change my name, NOBODY is knowing where I'm going or who I'm gonna be. But YOU will. Do you hear me? You will know who I am and where to find me, and you are the only one. Once I get where I am going, I will have to say "goodbye" to RVD and RVD.com, and it breaks my heart, but life is just what it is, isn't it? (Whoever was the first person to say "life isn't fair", I'd like to kiss you on the cheek.)
So. I will be here to support RVD for as long as I can. For as long as I'm in Tennessee and people know where I am. But as soon as I'm gone, I'M GONE, and I have to make it a clean break for my own safety, and for the safety of my son too. Ya know, one thing that's always been really crazy about me is, people who know me either REALLY like me or they REALLY don't. There just doesn't seem to be an "in-between". I don't know why. But people always seem to have really passionate feelings about me, one way or the other, haha. (What does that mean? That I invoke strong feelings in people? If that is true, I'm all for it.) At least I make people feel . . . something.
Anyway, I won't leave without saying goodbye. And Scream Queen has already volunteered to take over my "Random Thoughts" thread (lol) when I leave, so it's all good. (Thanks so much, Scream.) So y'all can look forward to "The Random Thoughts of Scream Queen". I know she will do a kick-ass job with it. Anyone can do it really. It's nothing special.
So, I guess for now, Reaper, I've rambled on. But I just really wanted you to know how much you have meant to me over the last three years (and yeah, it really has been that long my man). I'll be here for a lil while yet (still gotta pack and move ya know). I'll bid my farewells when the time is here. And, yes, it will be a sad day for me. I'm really gonna miss being here. It has become habit. It's kinda like I will have to learn how to "not" be here. I know people who don't care about this site as much as I have won't understand that. I don't really know what to say to their cynicysm. Hey, who knows. Maybe someday someone else will show up and be as devoted a fan and as dedicated to this website as I have been.
I'll be in touch, Reaptat, my precious friend. Love to you, your wife, and your family, always.